Richard encouraged us to ask God for wisdom in our lives. Wisdom for us to know God's timing, and God's means of building our house (that is our life). There are so many ways I need God to build my house. I am one of those people who once I get a vision of what I think God is doing in my life I go for it full force. I am not wise in my timing, nor am I wise in waiting for God to give me the means and resources to go for it.
I am a poor waiter. I don't like waiting. I like doing. In the waiting all of my hopes, longings, fears, and wounding comes up. Which I firmly believe is where God wants to meet me, but I am so afraid to sit in it.
The other day I felt drawn to read Proverbs and I turned to Proverbs 8. (Note: I am not a Proverbs girl, I am a Psalms girl, so this was clearly an act of the Spirit). Psalm 8 is about how wisdom calls out to us. It personifies wisdom as one who calls out in the street for people to hear her. I sometimes feel this is not true. I feel what is "calling out in the street" is confusion. But I need to believe and I will choose to believe that wisdom is there with me, calling out for me to hear, calling out for me to have discernment and good judgement.
Verse 33-36 in the Message says:
"Blessed the man, blessed the woman, who listens to me,
awake and ready for me each morning,
alert and responsive as I start my day's work.
When you find me, you find life, real life,
to say nothing of God's good pleasure.
But if you wrong me, you damage your very soul;
when you reject me, you're flirting with death."
Wisdom brings life and goodness. Rejecting wisdom brings damage to our souls. I know this to be true, how damaged I have been by the lack of wisdom in words and actions of others. I long to bring life to myself and to others. I long to bear fruit and hope. I long to sit in the hard places, to wait and listen for wisdom, and then to act on it. And the hope in it all is God is working for me all the time. "For He gives to His beloved even in his sleep" Psalm 127: 3 NASB. May it be true for me.
